Well my friends I am beginning the ending preparations for my baby. It is hard to imagine that any day now, I will be a mom to a beautiful baby girl. It is so exciting to think of her coming any day but so scary too, because I feel so unprepared. I try to make myself feel prepared by asking family questions about becoming a mom when they ask if I have any questions, but I keep feeling like I have a million questions and no way to ask them because I do not know what to expect in motherhood. I am just praying that natural instincts will kick in when she is born and put me at ease with how to raise such a tiny and fragile blessing that has been given to me.
I can not wait to hold her for the first time, and to kiss her head, and sooth her when she is unhappy, and just admire every aspect of her and thank Heavenly Father for such a wonderful gift he has entrusted me with. It makes me cry just thinking of the day she will be born and how happy I will be to finally hold her and to see my husband hold our child and see his love and admiration for her. I guess it must be pregnancy hormones making me so emotional but I really can not wait.
People always say that the last month is the longest month of a pregnancy. Time just ticks on by so slowly as compared to previous months. I feel that previous months have flown by because of how busy I was studying and preparing to take my boards test and buying things and decorating Jocelyn's room and so fourth. Now that the test is finally over with, and I have everything ready for Jocelyn to come, it makes me antsy every day. I look at the clock so many times through each day begging time to go faster so that the week can be over and I will be a day closer to the due date. It does not help that I am in the same room as the crib most of the day either as it taunts me about how close I am to having her here. But I am trying to really enjoy every last minute of her kicking inside me and laughing at my belly as it moves side to side every night as she is kicking.
I have recently started feeling some pretty bad pain in my right leg as I walk though that I will be happy to have go away after birth. It feels like my pubis bone joint is ripping apart as I walk and lift my foot off the ground even an inch. Thank goodness for pain killers! I feel bad for my mom now because this is what she had to go through with me. I guess it is payback :) Oh and leg cramps I can not wait to get rid of. Banannas have become my best friend as of late. I probably eat 2 or 3 a day to get rid of the cramps. (good tip to remember for those who have not had a kid before) Other than that pregnancy has been so super good to me. I could not ask for a much better pregnancy.
Here are some pics I have taken lately. Below is something I put together of me from the beginning of pregnancy to this morning at week 36. It will probably be the last pic I take of me being pregnant so I will just say this is the ending point and biggest I got in the pregnancy.
This is the super cute travel system my mom bought me. I love it so much. It is brown with a cute design on it. I liked the color because it will fit a boy or a girl. So if next child is a boy he wont have to be pushed around in a girly seat.
And this is the babies wall in the computer room. My mom came and helped me decorate this wall and since we did not really have a full room we could dedicate as her room Jocelyn will just have to due with a wall and closet. Good thing she can not really protest.
I am so excited to be a mom and can not wait for her due date. The dr. said I am starting to dilate a tiny little bit and that her head is pressing down pretty far so we will see how long it takes for her to be ready to enter this world. Next blog will have pics of her :) YAY!!!
